September 03, 2004

the thin edge of the wedge (a work in progress)

I was reading a particularly vile article 
     in Teen Vogue 
  the other day.  
 It was called 
"competitive dieting: is your circle doing it?" 
   or some such,  cutting it
        razor fine
on that   thin line 
between 
hand-wringing 
              and instructions.

"oh girls you wouldn't want
  to 
     *monitor each other
          constantly*
 because that would be
      so bad

        and think of how thin would you get."



and, like, in the first paragraph
 they talk about the
     weight-loss benefits of cocaine

this, i remind you, is TEEN Vogue...


And  then they drop 
      the  kicker:
"all girls lie about what they eat"
they will be starving 
and they will say:
"this is just what I like to eat"


and all of a sudden I see the
bomb                    blast
that has torn through us.


What are we doing?
--------------------


the come on is 
dead simple:


"it couldn't hurt"

which means:
doctors instructed to recommend 
  weight-loss,
regardless of apparent health
  and careless
of the potential consequences


as in "it couldn't 
hurt you 
to lose a few pounds"


words which
roll off
like it's nothing...


and the knife is sharper
      with  family
    &friends.
but usually,
a nastier come-on:

"you can have it both ways"
and
"i don't want to know"


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in both cases,
the practices of
weight-maintenace
  are silenced,
their consequences
taboo.


When was the last time
you heard on the news
that unhealthy dieting
and all forms of anorexia
subject you to horrible
risk of heart attack?


--------------------------

Don't you get it?
If you deploy
self-hatred to
make yourself beautiful
you undermine
and deny
the very premise of beauty.

The anorexic
splits the notion
of beauty in half.
"Think I'm beautiful
all the time?...
you don't know the
half of it, buddy,
what I go through
to look this way."

in practice,
the secrecy is as
important as the
not eating.



Guys -- steer clear
you don't want
to end up shackled
to that suck-hole...






you can both be a good friend
and lie about food.
you can have an anorexic body
and another one.
you can be "involved"
and self-obsessed.




--&self!--

how hard are we expected
to be on ourselves to
shed a few pounds?
   DON'T UNDERESTIMATE 
   THE EFFECT
   OF THE SELF
   UPON THE SELF

self-censure
   is like
 a hot wire
on an ice cube

  cut   you
  kleen thru







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JUST A NOTE:

self-hatred
is a soft blow
that one day
explodes your heart...

BETTER TO DIE EARLY
THAN WALK AROUND DEAD FOR YEARS

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this is the point, people:






or we're really interested
  in something else

There's 
Posted by Sam at September 3, 2004 03:21 AM