House of Paine

self made

  the need to
believe
  in  the possibility 
of  re-constructing 
             one's "self" 

this cornerstone expression 
           of 
              satans pride 
is today 
a sinless ambition 
to transcend one's self  limitations 

not learning to make
the best of one's self
but figuring out how
to sup the fucker up 

this shitfaced fantasy
is  more 
high  burger -persistent
more action governing

then
 any salvation dreams
based on  
spooky higher power resorts 

cause face it mac

"higher power shit
iz strictly for  us loseres "
          red skelton  1957 

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" at least higher power theory
is a poor proxy for the reality
of a socially produced
                        self "
                   kim il sung 
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the interaction of society 
produces its social beings

like uz hu-man creatures 

we know that 

right ?



not that
the work of conception
 in producing
       individual genetic
            natural variation
               is nullified 

only that this conception's 
"promise"
  is crucially completed
        by  subsquent social interactions 

what is "naturally "
        possible 
is either  socially produced 
                 or its not socially  produced

either way
society is the author of our self as 
                               " character "

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  the romantic notion
of a super spirit
or genius
blasting thru a mob of" shaby  otheres"
  to a bright self fulfillment
 today 
 in our shame facedly materialistic  age
becomes little more then
  the cult
 of the  rare " n- fecta" 

the one in a million 
take it all
DNA  lottery winner 

the poke 
with a wildly functional gene  combo

 a super -winneres array 

 pulled by u 
out of the still too much black boxed
               gene pool contest 

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the cult of natural character
was and still iz
  a nice  attempt to
            at once
                  kismet
                       the life deal 
and wonder
 at the occasional " prodigy machine "

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for the pure nature boyz 
infancy 
and early childhood 
   
 iz a proving grounds

not a construction site 


this notion
like all notions
 has its on board alibis 
                     of course


hideous "hands"
 dealt by society
to its lower parts 
are over come 
by beautiful sprites and sports 

 dealt out
even in the darkest corners
  occasionally
and arbitrarily 
by ma nature


so much so 
that society
 must from time to time
step back 
in awe 

 gape at nature's 
wonderous individual
 maximal programs 
working their way up
 to world historical peaks 

what of
 the  sea of mediocrity below ?

 "get ye to a wage job clown"

and worse yet 

the gene-wise  snake eyed ?

 " feel good 
by feeling sad 
 wishing well 
and giving needed care "

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  but given the "whatevers"
    of each 
  of our initial accidental natures 

the  faust inside uz
 must forever strive 
to  discover 
how  to rebuild himself 

 and this goal of faust 
  is dynamic

no marcus aurelius he

no static shit

no 
"this be  my gift set
  i shall  make the most of it "

no 
el fausty 
plunges into re-creation 


building a  better ME  

even if 
one knows only 
in the nth generation
 of discovery
lies the full realization 
of this quest

only in that distant future 
will
 total 
 self mastery exist 
thru possible 
       complete self sublation

still the gig pulls faust on and on and on 

the elixir to be  superman 
  has no end 
better can always be bettered 

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  aaahh 
   the fonder  dream 
of  self trasformation 

satan  you shall dance for ever
                there is no stopping  this music !

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