House of Paine

some left lib-ers dither

heres some 
idea of what we prole genii types 
are 
up agin
when we dicker 
with members
of the left out 
 yankee boho  thinker klass 


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eric 

( a very typical
real live
 left out yankee thinker element )

is sincere but
i fear he's perhaps
hopelessly mired in his own 
ten foot wide abstractions 

quoting winston smith
gives one an idea 

and 
calling the p&j crowd
bureaucrat wanna bes

this is 

well

junior high rage at its mellowest 

the chap needs 
to get over his wall to wall 
inverted vanity

and possibly
re=direct 
his righteous rage
 and 
effectively
useless 
and 
entirely 
unpoetic dispair 


he'd do himself
and some of the rest of uz
a big favor
by joining 
a  practical out fit 

one 
with a  hard nosed
finite mission 

maybe even one 
in which
by
rereated dunkings
 of his  sacred self
he can 
tame
 this mountainous sense
of what constitutes
a worthy crusade 

and actually "get with it"


and 
if 
there is no such animal 
out there
 walkin around

aahh well 
theres where my use
of "hopelessly" 
comes in 

Posted by meat me at September 10, 2004 08:49 PM 

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struggling with our inner erics 

reading meats comment 

it occured to me

i pinky paine 
was an eric once

more or less


I remember
being closest to an eric
during the huge fuss and feathers
the demos
and 
occupations
that transpired down there
on Kampus klown School
right after
 old nick hisself
invaded cambodia 

that woulda been
 in the spring of 70

heres me while eating 
a triplex one footer
from
 Dad's  Dog House  :

" shit what you student freaks 
THINK yer up to here...
these are  amerikan waters 
we're cruising thru  here

what did you expect 
to provoke with your fumings?

another police riot

shit 

this ain't LBJ's Amerika 
no more

today yer facin'
Nixon's amerika
the stench of dead kennedy boys
is over 


besides whats your personal beef

you ain't goin to nam

yer white 
yer educating your sick self
and
some one else 
is picking up the tab

so 
kool off
 hip out
run smooth 
 
forget the klass struggle
its a bummer


try 
makin'
an aesthetic revolution 
in stead

and 
try makin it 
right there 
at the center of your mind


by the way
fer you ginks
arty revs 
are best  done 
one head at a time
not 
one herd at a time "

now i 'll
admit
I had no 

demo's iz 
"pernicious 
safety valves"
theory

no 
march and you'll actually 
 help stabilize 
"the system"

that lovely 
type
of my brain iz my  wind tunnel
type no  test model

no i had not such then

no 
 self serving
 social dynamics theory 
to buttress my 

" its got to be
about each one of our
                        very own    BIG MES 
thats the first last and only ism for me ism "

shit how could i 

where was the time 
to formulate one ?

at that particular period
in my education (sentimental division )

i had a chick
that had 
very effectively 
Humbertizied
your  pinkster

a chick

tanned
smooth
and willowy of limb

who
thanks largely 
to 
my own pot shot madness
i figured
was day and night 
planning
 her escape
from my jail

her 
sexual 
"Quilty powered"
 liberation

so fuck 
whos got computer space
for building 
exculpatory rationalizations
when 
yer gal 
right  there
in mid conjecture
might
duck out
and be discovered
only too later

maybe 
45 minutes into 
gettin perfectly 
dicked by 

well

prolly
that
that
that 
virile ropey armed
coal haired
gator ally dude
that just joined 
the Kollege grounds crew 

the same fucker 
 I caught raking
outside our room window 
 yesterday 


Posted by pinky at September 11, 2004 10:01 AM 


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( the fine free swimmin fellow resonds)

Pinky - x  here.

Say I lived down the street from you and managed to tame my mountainous sense of crusade -- though I don't think it is that, but we'll say... What "practical outfits" are there around you that you would advise me to join up with? What would I be doing within this practical outfit. What are its goals?

Posted by tic tic tic tic tic at September 12, 2004 12:07 AM 
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( pinks surely glib reply )

the service employee union 
or the commercial workers union

Posted by pinky at September 12, 2004 11:57 AM 


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( our playlet
   the self imporatnce of being eric
                      continues )
                         
( why  no smiles yet ?) 

That's it? join a union?

Posted by x  at September 13, 2004 02:40 PM 

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( here's the head of the no  matter)

yes unions

thats where the proles are herded

proles mr smith proles

the god damn proles

can't live with em
can't live without em
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funny about your name sake
mr orwell
in '84
he has 
his sourly self serious
hero
a guy with a pebble sized 
sense of personal irony 

wade into the prole sea 
only up to his ankles
at best

be4 he flees
and  fetches up 
in an antique shop

an antique shop
mind you

full of old curiosities
from be4
 "the fall"

god but it
turns out 
to be  a front 
for 
brother biggles

who'd a thunk it
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pinky's
moral of the tale
at least 
of the writing of '84
if not 
its story.....

seeking petty refuge
inside 
your own curiosity shop of horrors
will prove
 to have a false bottom

a one way mirror

and most important 
the self realization
at the far end
the one you get 
just
as they chop your brain out

well 

it 
really 
don't cut much  ice 


free yer head?

big deal

so you escape
klean
for a moment
 or a single humans  life time

so you 
escape clean
from the gin soaked 
wagerys'
stop time boosing
their attempts to 
douse out 
 lifes itchy  tedium 
with mindless  baffoonery 
and pug ugly 
raptures of 
vicious ignorance
-------------------------------------
can u 
see yerself now
in 
winston smith ?

problemiz
hero  george
 didn't 
really see himself 
except up close

but 
then libertarians 
are like that

left or right

whether they compound 
the burden 
of a love for personal liberty
with
 a craving for equality too

or
relieve themselves 
by shitting on the proles

or  
exhaulting in their earned supremacy 

like say
that devil roper
of yore
 h l mencken
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pinky's Rx

for libs of either color

as for all 
toxic doses
of freedom headedness 

wade into the prole sea brother 

but make it 
a wade in 
at least up to your neck 

and stay put

put put put 

for 5 years minimum 

or
 till u have left yourself 
no bridge of return 
to burgerville 
either its boho communes
or its  gated communities


when that little voice
in yer head
 says to ya

" sorry bertie
 escape is no longer possible
           u are now
 hopelessly
common and ordinary " 

good luck

sail forth
and begin to wage 
among the hapless geeps 
of hour by hour  america

wage wage wage wage wage

forget the ivory garret 

cast off the robes
of the nite riding
 outsider visionary

shoot 
the lone wolf genii
howling away
in yer head gear

throw out
every last drop
of that  perfumed 
Bigmee  Bigmee shit

cut it all out 


let us have 
no more
of 
the  senseless smolder
 of wasteland prophets

start next monday
put your shoulder
to the  job wheel 

the  delicious sting
 of real exploitation awaits

then  keed
you never know

you might
gather the steam
to unionize walmart 

or midas muffler 

or macdonalds

or the disney shops

or the gap

or super cuts 

or grand ma's last bed pan 

or or or .....
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just roll in that
real prole shit
comrade  x 

till ya stink 
so bad
of the crassery of exploitation

your
most  suave friends 
will shun you

and 
you've lost  
yer god given
sense of 
intrinsic emptiness
and silly inner questing search 
for  personal  vastness and completeness 

warning
good soul


there is no equality
waiting for u out there


and whats more
they''re not waitin for ya 

nope 
those bunking
be4 the mast
have sent your type
 no invitations 
to join the time  slaughter 


but 
even if its
as  thankless
as it should be 

there is 
always 
the sinking in wet sand

try it 

"only begotten son "

or at least
if not that

try plan b

and 
steer clear
of the attic hide a ways 

get near unions 

okay 
you can 
cringe at the philistines
if you must


but here's the point

in the end

maybe 
the proles
can do fer u 

what u 
quite wrongly think 
u can do 
fer them

Posted by pinky at September 13, 2004 03:49 PM 


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(the x guy  replies)


So your advice then -- If I understand it -- is to basically immigrate to a hardcore working class neighborhood. Get a low paying job doing menial rote work. Willingly struggle to pay rent and make ends meet, to make myself more of a "true" proletariat. Willingly subject myself to the more overt forms of exploitation... deny all supposed priveleges to develop a better consciousness free from my foolish libertarianism, and then unionize...

Yes? No? sort of?

Posted by x  at September 13, 2004 05:00 PM 

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(pink)

yup 
thats about it 

minus some of the coloration 
in there 
that makes it seem like a sacrifice
or a monks hairshirt

i guess where we diverge the most
is over the value of an individual conciousness

a better idea 

a better perception

to me 
they're
dime a dozen
stuff

whats the diff really 
between
making yourself
one in a thousand 

and 
say 
one in one hundred thousand 

you're prolly already at the one in a thousand level 
and god knows 
you can take that brightness
 right on down the mine shaft  with ya 

try 35 years of that  
with  a few years off 
here and there
for good behaviour 

Posted by pinky at September 13, 2004 11:35 PM 


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