September 14, 2004

sub vocalizing


" if times are slow
goose em up "

that was my old man's motto

so
taking
" the boss's"
 example as
good 
advice for once

  since 
 he swam naked
when his dearest  st connie
 had prunes over


 pinky 
plans givin ya 

a few nude dives  


 =======================





 

  if all politics is personal 
as well as local

then
I'm no jack kennedy

hell 
nor am I 

a tip o'neil 

----------------------

as to mattress jack

the trained
speed reader 


i alway always always

sub vocalize 
when i read

so i don't cover 
much ground
daespite 
my many  hours 
at the task

jack read much more then i have

so did my fellow scorpion TR
of course


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 nope 
 i'm 
all too
literally a book worm
or  snail
or  slug

there I be 
crawling across the page

line by line


ok so I've left 

the tell tale
 soft little liptic motions 
behind 

even deep 
in  mid dudgeon 

butfuck

i'm still sayin
 the shit to myself
up there inside
 my head 

still 
readin
word for word
even at top speed
not much beyond
 pulpit rate 

hence 
my circa 19 years of age
decision

 a career
in deep erudite
scholarly pursuits
was
for this particular  brain trooper
totally 
 out of the question

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shit my library of read pages?

how many shelf feet
would you guess

how long is it
down there 
 under my belt ?

 well

that length 
like  another

metric embarrassment

shall remain a party secret


aahhh
once again

we confront

the final irony 
              of personal  inheritance 

------------------------------------

while we're at 
sources of scandal and shame


i never learned 
to ride a bike

and only got 
an authentic  driver's license  
  after i was 35 

but drivetoday?

that 
I can do  sister 

in fact

can can can  do 

and not just my car

baby i can 
 drive your car 
                            too

--------------------------
p.s.


by the way folks

 

these high gear
" spice " shipments

will be arriving 

episodically 

 like cuban  hurricanes 

shit

give me sufficient provocation

I may put

  jean genet's
prison logs

out of the running

for ghastly but oh so true 


so  keep 
clicking 
on
 the house 

 now and again

till  at least
december 7th 
if kerry wins

and veterans day
if
cheney gets his fresh start
 
------------------------- 
 among other deep darks
of a fay school boy


 your 
ever so  pinky

plans  tellin all 

there is

thats  worth 
 "a  danish"

  about  
his then night life
of  self abuse


u know


you're 12 

hopelessly white
barely male enough
and 
condemned 
night after nightafter night
to
 a boarding school alcove bed

but  yet

 simultaneously

you're
stranded 
on
a desert island 

with a 

"hand picked "

seraglio 

containing
among others

some 
seriously
over the embankment
aged 
Z  screen queens 

 lady wrestlers 

lizzard and wasp women

 and other 
  dance ready 
female  monstrosities

plus a scattering of rogue male  gorrillas

 and the ever relentless 
evil  fu manchu 

each nite after lights out
all of us
me pinky
and my brains sick managery
 off to our 
seemy  joint enterprises

the sexual triumph 
of the ugly over 
the graceful

the vulgar and agressive
 over
 the refined and demure 

the haggered over the smooth


 be there 
other venues de combat ?

you bet weasil face

trireme tableaux
 various rings cages
and pits

from 
rowing benches
  to 
tethering posts

maybe even
i'll show ya 

 if the gall 
within me
finally completely
 triumphs over 
my enemic 
  sense of the beautiful

i'll fling forth

some 
highly problematic
ritual humiliations
of same self time frame


and shame filling 
contests 
displaying 
an  inadequacy
that could shadow an entire lifetime  

 
 fantastical

 incursive

  bent
under its own self preserving
dellusions 
if not  
 quite  latent enough for prime time 


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" hey doc
what da ya want
 there were 
 no girls there at fay

well 
except for 
the reverend Gaul's daughter
 in Mr Champagne's  dance klass.... "

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CALL THE WHOLE BIZZ


 solitary
all male puberty 
relaxes
into its 
protean
 bi-sexuality 

what a sock hop

gals

what a sock hop


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Posted by pinky at September 14, 2004 03:51 AM

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